Currently Dangerous Affair: Dangerous Magic / Affair of Honor By Jayne Ann Krentz see related

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My life these days consist of work, sleep, and reading. Usually in that order. Lately, with my encroaching birthday coming up, I'm feeling restless for a change. I tell myself everyday now that there has to be more to my day than just working my tail off for the man, and reading up everything in sight. I'm getting to the point where I don't really watch much television. Frankly, by the time I start watching something, they're already showing the season finale of it. Quite aggravating when they've only shown a few episodes to begin with before taking it off the air.

I feel like I've been inside of my shell for a long while this past year, and I'm finally ready to come out of it. I need some new changes, new perspectives, new insights into everything. I need to do more with my life than just exist.

So on that thought, I went out yesterday after work to Lane Bryant, and spent a fortune there as a treat to myself. Still, as I stood there in the mirrors trying on outfits, I realize that with every changes, I need to make some major and some minor ones, and keep to it this time. I'm comfortable with who I am, my beliefs, and my priorities. But there are still some holes within me that I need to fill, some holes that I need to figure out what to do with. I've never really allowed myself to dream overly much, for you can't be disappointed when it doesn't come true, but suddenly lately, I've been dreaming a bit. And I realize.....that it's time I started to do something about those hidden dreams of mine.