Currently Dangerous Affair: Dangerous Magic / Affair of Honor By Jayne Ann Krentz see related

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My life these days consist of work, sleep, and reading. Usually in that order. Lately, with my encroaching birthday coming up, I'm feeling restless for a change. I tell myself everyday now that there has to be more to my day than just working my tail off for the man, and reading up everything in sight. I'm getting to the point where I don't really watch much television. Frankly, by the time I start watching something, they're already showing the season finale of it. Quite aggravating when they've only shown a few episodes to begin with before taking it off the air.

I feel like I've been inside of my shell for a long while this past year, and I'm finally ready to come out of it. I need some new changes, new perspectives, new insights into everything. I need to do more with my life than just exist.

So on that thought, I went out yesterday after work to Lane Bryant, and spent a fortune there as a treat to myself. Still, as I stood there in the mirrors trying on outfits, I realize that with every changes, I need to make some major and some minor ones, and keep to it this time. I'm comfortable with who I am, my beliefs, and my priorities. But there are still some holes within me that I need to fill, some holes that I need to figure out what to do with. I've never really allowed myself to dream overly much, for you can't be disappointed when it doesn't come true, but suddenly lately, I've been dreaming a bit. And I realize.....that it's time I started to do something about those hidden dreams of mine.

Currently One Night With the King By Tiffany Dupont, Luke Goss, John Noble, Omar Sharif, John Rhys-Davies see related

Wow, it's been ages since I've last posted on here. I've just been so busy with work and school. Mainly stressed out more than anything. It's gotten to the point where I finally had to make a decision, and that's to withdraw from school for the time period. After three straight semesters of nothing but math classes, I am so burnt out on the subject. I literally had no motivation, no desire, nada to even crack open my current math book. And the sad part of it is....this is the math class I really need to take to graduate with.

But I decided to withdraw because I knew that even if I somehow managed to pass this class, it would be with a barely grade, and I hate that. I want to do my best in it. I don't know yet if I will retake it this fall. It all depends on my job situation and how I feel at that point. I also will have to save up the money for it since I know I probably royally pissed off my VR by doing this.

A bit of good news though...my job has been extended for another 6 months, so I have some time before needing to do some job hunting. I'm hoping to still continue on with the same agency when my 6 months is up, but that all depends on what is being offered by then. Still, I leave it all up to God. :)

My workplace is stressing me out though. They have a new rule now where everything literally has to be done with 24 hours. Mind you, we're only there for eight hours, one of which is spent on lunch, so you have seven hours total to do all this in. With me being put in charge of the mailroom, I have so much more to do than I did before, to the point that there's no way I can do all this without a lot of help. I have told my bosses that, and still they shrug their shoulders and say get it done. I'm having another meeting with them on Friday, so we shall see how it all pans out. Another source of stress is my boss constantly sending me emails on what changes they want for the mailroom, but they don't have a clue as to how the mailroom works! So all of their changes actually creates quite a mess! I'm doing this job to the best of my ability, and that's all I can do really. But I really wish that they had not made me the head person for the mailroom, especially since I'm only a temp and part time at that. This is really a job for someone working full time, and with more experience. But I have since quickly learned that at this workplace, no one wants to work the mailroom. No surprises then that it got handed to the temps, eh?

I shouldn't complain, I know. I'm so lucky to still have a job right now when there are so many people out there who don't. I thank God for my paychecks, and for another day of peace.

Currently Diary of a Mad Black Woman (Full Screen Edition) By Kimberly Elise, Steve Harris, Tyler Perry, Cicely Tyson, Shemar Moore see related

I have my first exam this week, and that is really freaking me out. I have to do so good on this test, and I'm not confident at all about my math skills. I'm just gonna breathe....and study like crazy.....breathe.....breathe....

Been getting into a lot of Christian movies lately, especially those by Tyler Perry. It's really refreshing to see Christian themes in it, and very little to no profanity for a change. Oh, and no nudity scenes. I'm pretty sure everyone knows what goes on behind closed doors by now. Recently read a book the other day where the romance was set during the time of Jesus, and man, I really wish I was alive back then to hear Jesus or the apostles speak. That would've really been something.

Last Friday, they made me the head person for the mailroom where I work at. Completely unexpected, and it's a lot of responsibility. Mind you, I've only been working there about 6-7 months, and I'm only temporary. I'm supposed to be sharing the duties with another co-worker of mine, but he's so lazy that it's pretty much all on me. I'm hoping that my contract will get extended for a few more months when it's up in March. Till then, I'll keep job hunting....

It said in the news online that the state of Mass. is currently either considering or they've already done this, I'm not sure, but they will be allowing folks to put down whatever gender they feel like on their driver's license. Oh yeah, that's gonna work out so well. If you're gonna go down this route, why even have the gender on there?

In other news, it is sounding more and more everyday like California is not the place to live in right now. They have currently put a hold on all tax refunds, and are even considering telling govt workers to stay home a day or two every week due to the severe budget crisis in that state. Wonder when the rest of the states will follow?

Gotta remember that even in these times of hardship, that God is there and we're never alone. God knows our needs before we do, and we'll always be ok. Praise the Lord!

Currently Righteous Kill By Robert De Niro, Al Pacino, Curtis 50 Cent Jackson, Carla Gugino see related

Went out today and bought a snow shovel. Didn't really have a choice as the weatherman keeps saying we're about to get a blizzard sometime this week. Mind you, I didn't really see anyone else buying them, but oh well. It'll come in handy for something.

Went to my first day of Precalculus class today. I was surprised to find two interpreters waiting for me. After all, this was only a one hour class. I'm guessing these interpreters are struggling to find work. I have no idea, and it didn't feel right to ask. I don't mind having two though. The class itself is gonna be hard, so I'm going to see about setting up a tutor before class. After all, I'm always having problems with my math homework, so it would make more sense to see the tutor before class than it is afterwards. What was interesting though, is that apparently you have to make a B or above to even advance to Calculus. Yuck! Good thing I don't need to.....but I do need to make a B or above anyway to get Gallaudet to accept it. Now there's a better reason to try....

Cut back on my hours at work, and I must admit, I feel a lot less stressed for having done that. It was hard last semester, working full time and going to school too. There's no way I'm gonna repeat that this semester, not when I need this class to graduate with.

Gonna work on my weight loss goals again. I really fell off the wagon for a while. It's terrible to realize one morning on the scale that you and Oprah have a lot in common.

Currently The Duchess By Ralph Fiennes, Simon McBurney, Charlotte Rampling, John Shrapnel, Dominic Cooper see related

Ahh..the new year rings in, and I didn't meet my goal of reading 200 books in time. But I came very close though...in my defense, working and going to school really interfered with that, so I think I'll try again for 2009.

As a result of my class this spring, I'm dropping from full time to part time at work, and honestly, I could really use that extra time. With so many changes at work lately due to reductions and cutbacks, the workload has really increased like crazy, which in turn really distracts me from school and from my own weight loss goals. So next week, when school starts, I'm gonna try to work out a schedule that's not quite so harried like the past year has been.

Got back in touch with a cousin recently over the holidays that I hadn't heard from since I was 15! Now there's a X-mas miracle! Hopefully we stay in touch this time....

God Bless Everyone, and hopefully this year is a good one!